i'm concious and that's a start more than most people got when i realise that i haven't got what most people want oh, no
i was on the grass on my back still and staring as the day slowing down and i was asking god to talk to me i was young and open but still there was no reply oh, no
i was cold and lonely cold and unconcious that's how i felt when someone died i lied but i felt certain it was the end now i really know it was the end
i tried to be cruel how painfully i needed you so when you left me i really became that cruel
so we see what we are and we doubt what we're not you bury your lot open a vacancy in your heart and you give yourself to something else and long for the purest kind of loss oh, no