to win means to lose everything: to pour through fingers ashes of yesterday, with dead hope in hands to dance to the rhythm of raped tommorow's yelling, with knife blade to cut umbilical cord, to cut feeding breast and arteries of faith, to care the weeds within fed with grief, bitterness and anger, to drink the venom and to spit one onto every flower of human though into musty vagina of hope and into the eyes of others
lets reach the bottom! so as to bite teeth into mud, feel the fragrance of the dead and shivering of despondency so as to fill eyes with darkness, with nonsense to harm a thought and to rape the pulse with poison
lets listen intently to the discordance of every breath and the monotonous lament of heaven lulling to sleep clotting lead in lungs and tons of sand I have swallowed
I rot with the gag soaked in the blood of my gums with livid grease instead of the bloodstream abyss within my head, words that take dreams away, dreams that poison the dawn my lungs burned with soot which I breathe for so many years in the livid world of smoke, snow, and the forests of chimneys
and with me the end of the world rots which within me has to sleep the end of the world laced by the cut throats of people I cannot omit and that I cannot bestow a crime upon
the apocalypse depicted by spittle, blood and dried sperm, the sweat of clenched fists and smashed teeth spat onto the sun to humiliate the day
I praise the beast again as the stigma of death in every footprint I make I believe in the Shadow and the only rule of this world: nothingness cannot be robbed and disfigured by fear
rotten blind shells plunder my brain alms of consciousness beg for oblivion stolen memories force to look for previous hours, broken mirrors and empty bottles to unwillingly recreate threads of life... I am the shadow, a collage, words without taste and expression forged by anger, spawned and aborted from the womb of the abyss which are dressed in sense in the one and only ultimate context: the monochromatic infinity of nothingness beyond me
let all holy corpses on the trees wither let all holy wombs rot and let bearded sages die in suffering spasms of leprosy and let priests hang by their own intestines and let lovers of poverty drown in tears of symphaty which seas of I greed along with forests of bayonets and deserts made of ash, black clouds and insatiable plagues, hecatombs that shall depopulate black-black streets and my mind fed through years with flames
let all others die...
my guardian angel and leper themis dwarves called letters of the law and ailing virtues of morality beautiful in heartlessness pure science and stronger than symbols physical laws let the silence in the sand decay, and wind, and sound as well goddesses on the firmament and distant worlds entire life no matter if inside or outside of anything has been woven the nothingness known to the others may this very sand bite and every atom falling into the pupil of a man's eye world imagined and imagination itself ideas, ideals, ideologies breath of life and exhalation of death
and let this whore Hope cry with her womb 'cause her juices within throat of another slut have vanished in their passionate embrace the flames of tomorrow arise...