My past is leaking into my present I can't see the face I had some years ago And the failure has invaded me, And there are scars I cannot handle Where is the man I used to know? Where is the strength I used to have? My past is leaking into my present. And I cannot see a future. All that I've written and all that I've read Seem meaningless and empty Like a blank sheet of a book never written Like the earth without sun. Like the moon without darkness. My prayers seem to be empty too And that's the worst... that's the worst I've tried to stand back on my feet But nothing leaves me...nothing leaves me... My past is leaking into my present The sky does not seem blue anymore And the nights have never been that cold I've never felt so alone before There are no cats anymore at my feet. Neither joy nor laughter Memories drown me, memories drown me My past is leaking into my present And though I felt that death is never far away I envy the ones that reached him in glory I envy the ones that stood on their feet Before the final step...my past is leaking into my present