The first time I heard my heartbeat I was so surprised I closed my eyes and hummed to the rhythm – it sounded sweet and just when I thought I had found my peace disorder and chaos surrounded me it woke up and broke through the boundaries but instead of screaming I bottled it up and soon all that anger will start to erupt
I’ll never forget it – forever regret that I ever neglected you my friend soon we’ll be together – the badder the better always and forever to the end that soon begins my friend
the strings you hear are audio images of the things I fear so why don’t you sing my dear the melody will give you energy when it is in your ear yeah why don’t you do what you do best care for yourself and screw the rest I’m not far from finally hitting that rock bottom when I thought I couldn’t sink deeper that was when I saw the dark silhouette of the grim reaper in the bathroom mirror breathing down the neck of my reflection where can a spirit like mine ever find protection? what is the right direction? what are my errors and how can I correct ‘em? fuck it! I’ll dissect ‘em
I’m bored of this drag – yes I’m having enough I’m packing my bags and I’m grabbing my stuff I’m yelling “I’m sick of the smell – it’s repelling” the voices of devils in hell they are telling me “life couldn’t be peachier down here underneath the earth” who knows I might just take heed to their words and then let my body be feeding the worms I was attacked by memories and I was smacked down on the street tried to get back up on my feet but still I fell maybe it’s time to set ‘em free – the suicidal tendencies just as if I’m from Venice Beach and kill myself ‘cause I have visions of misery – pictures of pain different decisions that need to be made I’m begging you if you are willing to wait just give me a minute – I need to be sane I try to forget but I feel in my bones that memories never will leave me alone it’s quite bizarre and thoughts like these are constraining me and my brain cells will they be free when I’m in hell? stay with me – we might as well just wait and see – guess time will tell