i want to kiss you but i think that itd be too soon and im not so sure if you want me to so i wont do it and if i did it would be a waste cause nothing ever goes my way but if it did it wouldnt last cause nothing ever does and if it did im sure id fine some way to fuck it up i dont deserve to ever have a good thing in my life so ill down this beer and go to sleep to feel alright but nothing is alright and i wont be alright until i find a way to learn to love myself until i find a way to learn to love anyone else but i know that i wont im doomed to be alone and thats okay ill be okay but probably not today.