the winter air clinging to my lungs i held my breath for you but it was far too long long days getting longer by the week i remember i'd be there when you needed me but i hate this place and the cities i'll never see i hate myself like everything else i can't stop thinking i can't stop drinking myself into an early grave i can't stop think maybe this is how it's supposed to be fuck this empty apartment laying on the earth put my body in the river cause it's what i deserve maybe tomorrow i'll wake up better than i am now